25th of October

Maybe it's because working for nearly a whole day long, things seem to keep on popping out from my mind... Just get lots of thought suddenly... Life is short sometimes isn't it?
I'm afraid of letting people down... That's one of the things that make me keep on moving on... 
Yea, feel tired sometimes... There are times when I'm totally worn out physically and mentally... But life has to go on... Right after the next moment, when you are chatting or meeting me up, I'll continue with all kinds of nonsense...
Maybe I'll just get a shower and have a good rest, I'll be alright as soon as possible... Wake up in the morning and brand new day is waiting for me...

马来西亚

非马来人忽再争财富蛋糕 - 这标题应该出现在报纸头版上，不该出现在内页。这不是我写的，是某人在巫统大会说的。一个某区妇女组主席，另一个巫统大会议长，他们口里出来的话难道没在煽动人民情绪吗？至少我的情绪是有被煽动到，话说我也是个人民，那煽动到我的情绪的不也得搬动内安法令出来调查吗？

内安法令查过了黄明志、郭素沁、Petra，那为何不曾动用它来扣留曾口出胡言、说华人是寄居者的阿末伊斯迈呢？为何校长发表叫华人学生回中国的事需要几个月才能把他们的职务革除呢？我想说：我是出生于马来西亚，有马来西亚居留和公民权的马来西亚人，在马来西亚里面，我是华人，却不是可以动不动就回去中国的人。华人占了马来西亚人口比例30%，全世界都知道这个事实，同样的，独立是由三大种族和全国人民携手得到的，这个历史不是说你想改变就能改变的。土族享有特别待遇，在沙巴砂拉越我没异议，但对于西马半岛，你们一而再，再而三，动不动就说你们是土著，动不动就说政府应该更帮土著。华人和印度人有土著30%股权这样的待遇吗？那你岂不是没能吃糖、永远也得花一大笔钱购买飞机票了？郭鹤年和Tony Fernandes难道都靠政府资助创造了现天下无人不知，无人不晓的糖王国和Airasia吗？如果不是他们一手一脚的建起这一切，恐怕今天not everyone can fly了。

谁说现今的年轻人不关心政治？不关心的定义是什么？把票都投给反对党是不关心吗？换个说法，也老实说，不是现今年轻人不关心政治，是看你们这部连续剧看到累了。关心政治的年轻人都到哪儿去了？也许都在国外当上了某个部长，又或是被内安法令追查着。人才外流不是个新鲜的课题了。十几二十年了，这么长的一段时间里，我们做了什么挽留别人，又或是说我们做了什么去阻止同样的事情继续发生？当自己在外国某家私人医院躺在手术床上准备进行手术时，发觉到主治医生是从自己国家来到这里帮别人看诊时，你会不会觉得可笑？或是有种很悲哀的感觉？

贪污事情已不是什么新鲜事了。一个国家有了反贪会，就一定还会有反反贪会，再有反反反贪会，这样下去没完没了。从两台战机引擎失窃案，到买了个不会潜水的潜水艇，我们还要被外国人笑多久？不丢脸吗？简直丢脸丢到家了。蒙古女郎，赵明福事件，难道都因为媒体的越来越少报道而渐渐都消失得无影无踪吗？

无言，更无语，当笑话笑笑而已...

Thumbs up for my mom...

I did something to be cool bout today: to cut a fresh chicken meat by myself... This was the first time in my lifetime... Wow, unbelievable... Yea, that's the beginning of the story...

I'm lucky to have such a great mom. Not knowing when will you see this, maybe you won't if I don't show you... Raising a monkey such as me won't be easy, especially with a bad temper... 

So much wanna to thank about. Thank you for:

-teaching me patiently and praying for me persistently

-sending me into Chinese schools which I refused to in the first place. 

-preparing all our meals, although they are weird sometimes, they are the best foods I've ever had. (This was the reason why I don't need to prepare food for myself)

-letting me to do most of my decisions and you are always beside me to give advices, I really appreciate them.

-looking after me when I'm sick.

There's so much more, but a tired brain can't function well in the middle of the night...

I miss how you sang to put us to sleep and I miss the way you teach me how to walk in life...

Although three of us had grown up, but we make you mad sometimes... I miss how you scold us and how do we quarrel with each other... Taking care four of us will be tiring sometimes, but being a Supermom, you are great...

Thumbs up and not forgetting the important part: I love you...

累 -- 文章

累了也许感触就会较多，出来的文章都有品质保证

在想该说说近来干了些什么坏事还是最近体验了什么不一样的事

床前故事前有句话必须让你们知道：如果你想找个像平时你看到的我，那你就不该到我任何网站上去找，因为那里都不会有你们要的我。语毕。

这几天基本上尝试了很多我从来不会做的事，是什么事，大家都心知肚明，不需在此地多言。当你看到自己的聊天窗突然有个基本上能称为陌生人的人给你发了个信息，第一个反应会是什么？看了给你发的信息，反应又是什么？是这人发错了信息吗？还是我真的有那么特别吗？最后两个反应，纯粹出自于本人的猜测。如果你有这样的反应，别慌，你是正常的，因为如果别人这样给我发信息，出现在我脑海里的都会是这些问题。

其实这么做，纯粹的出于想让看的人能有片刻放松、脸上出现个笑容而已。简单，明了。为了快乐。我也是个二十世纪的小孩、为了二十一世纪而奋斗的人类。从早上7点出门，到下午5点回到家，脸上的肌肉都无时无刻处于紧绷状态，生活压力都把我们逼得太紧。在自己最累、心情最不好的时候，也许能让自己回到战场上的只是个简单的微笑。终究坚持自己的价值观，给别人带来欢乐，让世界都因此而快乐。

有些记忆，不适合永远带在身边。把它们锁进了回忆盒里，也许人生就能够更豁达和自由。在从前和现在之间划了个分割线，新的人生路程就从此启程...

在此继续推广某个道德观念：言论自由是人类的基本权利

注：如有任何词句你觉得好像没看过，请别冲动拿出一本汉语大词典来翻查，因为这些词都不会出现于任何书籍及字典里，纯属自创词

10月16 — 2011年财政预算案出炉隔天

最近在闹话题荒，这似乎有些反常
走过人生不同的阶段，渐渐的发觉到人和人的距离原来也可以那么的远
当我们在同一个时间走过两条不同的人生道路时，我也许真的置身于火星上


人生道路上很多时候都会处于分岔路，不懂该往那条路前进，无论选择了哪一条，从那一刻开始，自己就是自己史录的作者，没法改写，也无法摧毁
沉默，也许能保留自己的神秘感；话少，总好过说错话


看了2011年的财政预算案，在这公开的部落格说公开的秘密似乎有些危险，免得一个不小心被不抓真正骚动人民情绪者，反而在网路上寻找道出事实的部落客的高官们发现，那我接下去10年的计划可就得泡汤了（话说我也没计划）。看着老百姓的血汗钱给你们这样一个花法，实在有些心疼。这里有个小小的建议，就是请你们以后在做预算案时记得划多一项：会消失得无影无踪之拨款。


人没有必要为了任何人而改变，因为这很愚蠢，因为这很不值得，因为这是个笨蛋的内心话

08102010

面对着堆积如山的书本，这种生活很乏味，一点乐趣也没有
人因为厌倦，所以逃避；逃避没能解决问题，只能暂时离开问题
不知不觉，我已经将近十个月过着这种我称为较写意的生活：不需为了策划一个东西而睡不着，更不需因为人和人之间出现了纠纷而烦恼，最重要的是我不需再看到自己的脸孔出现在报章上
因为曾经经历过这样的生活，我不想再回到去
我的中学生涯和别人的不一样，我曾经很抗拒上学，甚至曾经几天不想开电话，为得只是逃避，让别人找不到我
曾经顿时被捧上了云端，曾经有一班人会依着自己的指示做事情，曾经电话响个不停，曾经在一个月里到学校的次数五只手指能算的完，但那全都是曾经；如果同样的东西再来一次，如果可以选择，我不想再有这样的生活
那短短的几年中学生涯里，我看到了社会的现实，也看到了人性的丑恶与善变
如果你现在问我，那段时间我快不快乐，我想我给你的答案只会是这样：我只有在和朋友瞎聊时才觉得快乐
谢谢你们的欣赏，也谢谢你们相信我有这样的能力来胜任这样的工作，只是我不想再有睡不着的夜晚，只是我想要有个较简单的生活
努力的让自己从你的影子里走出来，为了自己，我一定要做到

Wall Street Addiction

I went for a movie, Wall Street: Money Never Sleeps yesterday. Try to imagine you were fitted in a 100++ seats cinema with three other audiences. It's cool, isn't it?
Wall Street and money are always related to each other. Wall Street can't survive without money and money need Wall Street to be famous. After the movie, I've tried to think deeper, that makes the movie was not just a movie, but a material that put my rusted brain into exercise. When we are on our way to the recovery of the economics crisis, will another bigger crisis coming on?
Inflation is going higher and higher, especially in these few years. A bowl of noodles only cost you a dollar in the past, but maybe you need three for now. Try to think bout money, they were only printed out by the banks all over the world, where it actually comes from nowhere. And human beings are creating them everyday, every hour, every minute and every second. 100,000 one dollar notes were printed out from the bank today, and the ATM machines are spitting them out for you when you've key in your account password and chose your options. The next day, the bank will still print out 100,000 one dollar notes by using 'Magic'. As day goes on, the money will be remained in a system provided that we don't destroy them with all means. Money that is in the system will be more each day, and this makes the money to lost its value.
Try to imagine that money will face the same crisis similar to what had happened in 2008, when Lehman Brothers came to the end of its business, where bankruptcy were declared. Wall Street was the first domino standing upright being placed in the 1st place, and when it was being down by a force, NASDAQ, NYSE and much more stock exchange counters were following its footstep. Things began to go wrong and at last, countries and firms were also being involved in the mess.
Money is what we use everyday. Where we buy and sell things using this printed papers. But are there any money valuers? Just like what we did in properties? You use your money for something, but you don't know the actual value of it. What will happen once the monetary system collapsed? Will the whole world be jet-lagged? Or it goes directly into a period of paralytic?