Been thinking a lot these few days, first year of university getting to an end, and the feeling of quitting doesn't fade, but gets stronger. With myself telling you I'm stressed up during this period won't even convince myself, but when signs of being stressed up are showing up, I can't do anything but just admit.
This has been a ridiculous year, starting off with my Year 1, thought of freedom and enjoyments at first, but it turns out to be totally different. I need to start taking responsibilities as an adult, whether I like it or not.
Signs of mentally unhealthy starts to appear after half of the second semester was gone, never seen me having this as a problem? Try to read this: I started to face difficulties sleeping at night, by rolling for hours on bed, having my earphones on, I knew that things are not just as easy as I grabbed too much nap in the afternoon. Been having liquors and cigarettes in my mind for the last couple of weeks but the worst is thinking of just banging my car while I was driving on the road.
The above statement doesn't seem like someone that you know, a person that you met at least once in a week, people see me as a whole, but I see myself as a hole. I walked all the way struggling badly, which I haven't have the courage to let anybody know. As you read this, you'll know I struggle as much as you do, and maybe more than you did.
What if I QUIT? This question had been in mind for some time, but now, let's have some rest. I'll try my best to get well, to be better each day.
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